Somewhere, where the wings should be, remained faith and unshakable feeling that the world is large, beautiful and amazing. Somewhere deep in the heart, there always was and still is a premonition of timeless joy of being. But the life itself showed different …
I`ve been looking. Wherever it`s possible. Peering into people’s heads, books, homes. I`ve been looking carefully, trust me. Looking intently, eating into it. And the closer, as it seemed to me, happiness was, the more destructive was the aftertaste. Tormented body, aching soul, crazy Morse code h-o-m-e, h-o-m-e.
…The End of the life LIKE THAT:
The copy of Simoron book came into my hands the very next night. Dang this Simoron! What is it? Isn`t it just another B.S? But I kept reading. The wings have not grown, the heartache didn`t stop, but I saw that my nervous and devastating my whole life night, was tearing apart like an old and flimsy cloth. It was tearing with a roar of laughter. Walls were shaking from laughter.
Horror rattled, fear melted away before my eyes. Back then I was laughing, because of simpatico, something like «a vacuum cleaner with hair in curlers.» Now it`s as easy as one-two-three.
After about ten workshops with the Simoron authors, I managed to get a little glimpse about the concept of the system. Three years have passed. And I began a long and painful climb to the mountain named Simoron. With falls, digging self down, instillation, self-locking, and all other stuff. Friends? Some were hanging by my side, some were not. Some stayed, some fell and some continue to fall. Some are neck-to-neck with me. It seems, several lives have passed.
It`s been six years now. I’m just starting ascension to the Simoron track. I already start feeling its musical multicolorness.
Simoron is not the means of problem solving. It’s different. Let`s take a mitten. Imagine that all the problems are located on the outside of the mitten as pieces of ice. You are trying to brush them off, but they stick even more. So, Simoron turns you inside out. Icicles are melting inside. That’s it.
It is difficult to wriggle out of it. It is difficult because the habit to solve problems gets embedded in you, it gets in the sub cortex, it becomes conveyor. I think that scientists will soon find the part of human body that solves the problems — some kind of corpus callosum, standing on guard.
So, back to the beginning.
I am whole, I am complete, I have everything in me. I’m full of myself, I don`t need anything else. I dally in the Universe in perfect health, in sober mind, in gracious mood, fully confident of my enduring excellence, in fearlessness and serenity, in my natural existence.
And then it dawns on me. Rather it Earthens on me. I am offered to play duality. Garmon stretched and the world spread out. Right hand, left hand, right bank, left bank. I walk between them, endlessly trample time. Time is a distance between the two sides (points, worlds, genders, colors, …, …, ….).
How to become human, if you’re whole and complete? One needs to discard the rest of the entire set of omnipotence. I discard. But since I can not lose my integrity as a matter of principle, I immediately start to replenish myself, compensate for the missing. If I am a woman, I`m looking for a man. If I’m cold, I am looking for warmth. If …… I am compensating, keep building, but it doesn`t take root, doesn`t bring happiness, doesn`t satisfy. I keep walking again and again, forward, faster, more thoroughly, more carefully. I get tired, I fall, I rest, I get up again, and again and finally at the end I fall for a long time.
In order to complete this music, one needs to understand that all life is a continuous compensation. And do not engage in compensation. I’m hungry — compensation. I want to sleep — compensation. I want money — compensation. I want not to want — compensation. I want not to be fixated — compensation. I want to solve the problem using Simoron — compensation. All that is compensating does not fit, it falls off me. It makes me want to run further.
In order to end this music, it is necessary to see and understand that compensation does not work, it does not make me happier. And most importantly – to give up the compensatatory way of life. No matter how bad I want to become somebody or to go somewhere — I do not give in to the compensating wish to buy a ticket. I perform outrun and … either I go or not, I understand that I don`t need to go there. Suppose, I want to get married. I do outrun of events and of myself in my desire and then I either get married or not (not at all, or get married to another person, or … whatever you like). Everything human becomes not a pain, not suffering, not thirst, not hankering, but a large, beautiful and amazing world instead. The world, where there are no wives and no husbands, no dreams, no money, but there is goodness in everything that they referred to as a wife or husband, dreams or money. Or goodness in the absence of all of the above. There is fullness, confidence, serenity, joy. There is a precise knowledge and vision of the world — infinitely kind, bright, safe, great, interesting, diverse, perfect. In everything. Everywhere. There are no wars, and no peace. There is no bad weather or good. There is goodness and happiness in everything that is in tune with that part of you that lives with integrity. War is not approaching, and death doesn`t touch, because you can see the essence of it, you can see the obviousness of the omnipotence and security, contentment and independence of any kind of events or acts, prices, markets or politicians. Even death does`t touch — it’s just the rustling of pages (death does not touch anyone, if someone doesn`t touch it :-)). He, who is tired and wants to go Home, finds refuge in you. He, who still hustles and bustles, just runs by with a smile, waving his hand and disappears into his thirst. The world of things becomes beautiful and colorful background, just a toy from which you not only independent, but also bring in your creativity, your joy to everything that is in tune, in harmony with you and is ready to cooperate.
Let`s say, I decided to rise to a Track of Soaring. First thing I should do is to break the habit of suffering. In what way? Constantly realizing, whether I am waiting for something or whether, expecting something, whether I am in shock, whether I would like to buy something, improve something in my life or I can`t even want anything right now because I am beaten up by circumstances, I am overwhelmed, it takes away my ability to hope, to believe in the best future, to dream. If one has a desire or many desires at once (does not matter), if one has an unfulfilled desire that would not seem realistic at all, then one should perform the outrunning operation.
Example:
I want to write in detail and clearly about myself and Simoron. I want everything to be clear, understandable and useful. I want to see happy simoron faces. Happy smiling faces of my loved ones, family, friends, relatives. Those who are far away and those who are not around.